Today i'm happy, sad and angry.

Today i'm a mixed of feelings.

Today i kind of wonder who i'am and who i want to be.

Today is Friday the 13th.

School as normal. My afterschool timetable made me so angry that i think i kind of vented my anger on my best friends. Why i'm I so stupid. stupid stupid idiot. is me. It's all my fault. It's because of my impatient and my unable to control temper. But I swear I tried to change and become less angry when my BFFs talk to me, but i can't. I really feel like my hot water is boiling till my head. Haiz, so many years. I still never change.

I'm happy cause i get to see him today, and because i'm with my BFFs i will always feel so happy. I don't know why. Just getting together makes me feel happy. And also being able to meet Lydia,my primary school best friend. But i'm sorry cause i didn't wrap the present and made her do all the job. haiz i'm so sorry.

I'm sad because I didn't do my job well. I didn't trust my her. I don't know why too, at the point of time when i'm fuming, I think of all the bad things she done. WHYOHWHY. I trust her but another part of my heart tells me that she's no good. Maybe it's only me but i feel that everyone has a devil living in their heart. And mine, is super evil. And i'm sad too because my BFF is not telling me smtg i wanna know. But i'm not gonna force her. I know she is very strong. I know.. But i hate when she bottle herself up. why no tell our other BFFs. at least someone. But sometimes i know.

Some things are meant to be kept in the deepest corner of their heart, where no one will ever find out. Guess what? I, have the darkest secrets nobody knows.(sounds evil) :) So if she wants to keep in her heart forever, I will understand, and i also will wish her all the best. Jiayou to you!

*P.S.: can't wait for next friday! he will blow me down :)_

**This last sentence dedication is for my BFF Chelsea bcos i think she will be reading this!

Smile all day! Don't let obstacles pull you down, keep going!