I feel like I've gotten into some problem why i introduce to myself . Why can't I be more open minded like the guys ? They are all so big square , unlike we girls . Always so small square , narrow-minded , some i mean , but alot of them is like that . I know . i can feel . I really don't like you , be it you are not on purpose or on purpose , i really dislike you , but i have to fake to like you . The society is so cruel , why is this even happening ? because of competition , you have to fake to be someone's else friend , not true friends . but true friends how many can you have ? I'm so afriad . You are not around anymore . But i hope that you think of me ocassionally , that's enough to move me to tears because i can't stop thinking about you , until now . 7 months passed , i still feel the same . i tihnk you don't thats why i'm scared . But only you can motivate me to do my best , i'm sure . but also on the other hand , i'm scared also that you will hurt me again , and i will lose my motivation once more , i don't wanna fail , so i choose to stay this way and don't probe or think so much , it's the best for me , you think ? I love you , secretly from the bottom of my heart .



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